"Wise men don't need advice. Fools won't take it"

Last week was my third session of CBT with my new therapist. A man. It is very difficult opening up to someone who you think won;t understand exactly what you are all about, but of course we are one species and he is just a therapist, he would have heard a lot worse than what I have to say.

I cried.

For the first time ever in CBT, and in front of a male therapist, I cried. I also apologised because he had to find me some tissues. Now, I know I am a crier, I have cried in front of many people before, but this was frightening because I felt like I had laid down my soul. We were discussing my low self esteem. He had asked me about how I feel about myself and had then asked me if I had heard my best friend say those things about herself what would I say...and I am very protective over my little, albeit incredibly strong and fierce best friend, I would be heartbroken if she felt that way about herself, but why is it OK for me to say these things to me?

The answer is, I don't know. I was stumped, lost for words...and for those that know me they will know damn well that is something that doesn't happen that often to me.

I have no idea why I can't tell myself all the positive things I will happily tell other people. I spread positivity, because I don't want others to feel that way, but it's SO IMPORTANT I start telling myself the same things.

I am worthy of the same happiness

...and we should all be saying this to ourselves.

Remember....don't say anything to yourself that you wouldn't say to your best friend.

Be the wise one, not the fool, because you, like them, deserve it all.

Kim

xx